Feeling of the dead..

This feeling can make you jump of a building..
This feeling can make you cut urself..
This feeling can make you hang yourself to death..
This feeling is the feeling you get when you know someone you love, dosent love you anymore..

I miss him damn alot..
I damn $&@%ing miss him..
I really need to talk to him,
I need to tell him that I love him..
I don't think I cn hold it in anymore..
No one seems to listen to me anymore now. I am always keeping it inside me.
It is $&@%ing painful.
I have no one to let it all out..
I will cry quietly myself everytime.
I have Been sick fr more than a month now.. Since 19march.
It's all the pain inside that causes the sickness to stay..

I need to tell him how badly I need him..
But I don't know how to open my mouth to talk..
And, I don't think he will do anything aftr I tell him..

Have you ever had this feeling you're drawn to someone?
And there's nothing that could be said or done?