Feeling of the dead..

This feeling can make you jump of a building..
This feeling can make you cut urself..
This feeling can make you hang yourself to death..
This feeling is the feeling you get when you know someone you love, dosent love you anymore..

I miss him damn alot..
I damn $&@%ing miss him..
I really need to talk to him,
I need to tell him that I love him..
I don't think I cn hold it in anymore..
No one seems to listen to me anymore now. I am always keeping it inside me.
It is $&@%ing painful.
I have no one to let it all out..
I will cry quietly myself everytime.
I have Been sick fr more than a month now.. Since 19march.
It's all the pain inside that causes the sickness to stay..

I need to tell him how badly I need him..
But I don't know how to open my mouth to talk..
And, I don't think he will do anything aftr I tell him..

Have you ever had this feeling you're drawn to someone?
And there's nothing that could be said or done?

It's been long...

Hey all!! It's been really long since I have updated his blog..
Yes. I'm using my phone to do it.. Scared ltr corrupt le..
I'll make this fast..

As you all know, it's the 2nd of may today..
Let's all say HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO...
BOBBY CHAN PEI WERN & SUSAN THO

BOBBY, I have known you since form 1..
It's the forth year we are friends..
Butt whacking went on fr the 4th year in a blink of an eye..
Let it go on.. Don't stop yeah!
Because, butt whacking represents how close we are..
I LOVE YOU, CHAN PEI WERN, my horny little friend..

SUSAN, i dont remember how I know you..
We had alot of misunderstandings..
I hope all the misunderstandings are misunderstandings and not as what I think they are..
I hope our friendship cn go on like last time..
Where you will tell me stuff and I would do the same..
And girl, if there's really things going on, u need to tell me and don't leave me wonderin what is. I will seriously go crazy..
I don't wanna loose a friend and get an enemy..
So, I'm saying sorry..
I love you friend (:

HAPPY SWEET 16, GIRLS
GOD BLESS YOU BOTH <3
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Yeahhh, I have been down for quite a while now..
I really want him to know how much I still love him, how much he means to me..
But, I really don't have the guts to do that. I don't know that he will actually think of me..
Will he think of me like I'm some desperate or clingy girl coz it was so easy fr him to let go but I can't?
I'm starting to think too much.. I am actually thinking that has never loved me from the start but he just said it maybe just for fun..

I really need him..
Yes, I admit..
I'm desperate, for his love...