i miss you.

I really really really miss you.
I dreamed of you that night.
It has been almost a year and a half.
I still remember the day, 15th July 2009. it was a wednesday night.
you called me, we talked for more than an hour.
My mom told me not to talk so long since you called me and not the other way round.
I didnt want to coz it was so fun talking to you.
and then you made up reasons for me to tell my mom.
we were talking about EVERYTHING.
from school, to friends, to people that annoys the hell outta us and lots more.
there were alot of laughing.
after alot of talking (and laughing), i finally knew what's the purpose of this phone call.

"I, __________(kept in my heart), officially ask you, Alison Seow Phui Kwan, to be my girlfriend and will care for you no matter what....... (and so on)"

i was super shocked. i didnt know what to say.
i didnt know, a guy like you, will like someone like, well, me.
so i said, "i dont know what to say"
then you said, "you can say yes"
well, to tell you the truth, i was blushing like crazy! i was (: by myself.
so i said, yes.
then we talk crap again.
oh! and i remember that time, you heard me talking to my mom and wanted to say hi to her.
She didn't want to, so you called me to pass the message to my mom and you said she's "your future mother in-law"
I said i have to go, and you told me to put down first and i told you to put down and it goes on and on and on,
until, you said "I love you",
then you said, "Put down the phone, darling"
After putting down, i went in my room,
My sis was having tuition, of course, with my tuition teacher.
 They thought I was crazy and kept on asking why am i laughing and smiling all by myself.


well, that's the past. 
can't go back anymore.

I miss the days when i first knew you.
I miss the days in the van after school.
I miss the way we used to talked.
I miss the way you bullied me.
I miss the way we laughed together.
I miss the way you pulled my rubberband.
I miss the way you said "i love you" to me.
I miss your retarded smile.
I miss you.